Undone

She was my queen
She called me her prince
I gave her my all cause she was worth all of me
How did it end like this
This wasn’t the plan how did I fall like this
I’m so deep the demons can hear me weap
I can’t stand the pain I’ve caused
The pain is too deep I can’t even live with myself
I see the blood on my hands from a broken heart
I feel like the witch cause it won’t come off
Lord this guilt is too heavy I need Someone to save me
I get down on my knees but I wonder if You left me
Can’t blame You if You did cause I’d leave me too
But how could I look at myself when I see the pain I’ve caused
Lord take it away and put it on me
They say time heals all wounds but Lord this one needs You
Only You could bind up her broken heart and heal her wound from the pain I’ve inflicted
Lord I give up I can’t do this cause You’re the only One that could see through this
If You give me control I know I’m only bound to fall Lord I’d loose it all
Lord I called her princess but she’s always been Yours cause I know she’s made in You
And true, I love her but Lord all my love, it comes from You
Why’d it have to end like this?
I always thought it would end in bliss
I never thought I would crush the one I love
Now all I can do is fall on my face Lord I need to see Your grace
I need to fall back but Lord, is it too late?
Lord I see it now, I’m trusting that You know my best
Lord here I am, take what’s left of me
I’m not looking for that warm embrace and no I’m not looking for that midnight kiss
I know I’ve messed up but I’m just looking for my friend back so we can do life
I take no credit for writing this poem

Spoken word (honestly, I just don’t have a title again haha)

I make a way when there is no way, I call that a miracle
I’m supernatural, the only life Giver in the spiritual
Just step back and give Me all you know
Some will cry to Me, “Lord, Lord” but I don’t know
Hold on, I’ve got you and I’m holding you close
Don’t doubt Me when you don’t even know about Me
You’re in the bedroom crying, but I hold in My hand eternity
My thoughts are above yours, don’t question Me
I do what I see fit in My eyes
Just be obedient and you’ll always hear My voice
The answer is above the stars, so stop praying to them
These trials won’t last forever, my friend
It’s your ignorance that makes you sick until my glory goes and reverses it
I promise to be with you until the end
Remember you’re a slave to Me, not to your own victory
Stop trying to find the gold when I’m all you need
I’m more than just money or things
I’m all you need
Just trust Me
Just believe in Me
I’ve been through Hell and back, listen to what I say
I did it for you, I claim the victory, and I claim you
Wow, you’re so beautiful and I made you with purpose
I want to give you life because I know you’re worth it
The power of the Gospel is not dependent on you or what you can do
You do not make the Gospel powerful because it’s already true
I change hearts daily and I choose to do it through you
Take one day at a time, don’t worry about the next
My grace will satisfy until your last breath
So don’t doubt me when you don’t even know about Me
I’m more than just prosperity or blessings
I’m all you need if you just trust Me
Just believe in Me
If only you’ll believe in Me

Stay

My heart has taken a beating but it’s still beating even though it’s weakening
God is sustaining me when I’ve slid to the edge sure that I’m slipping and soon to be falling
God don’t forget Your promises, don’t stop loving me
Don’t leave me reckless
I keep turning back to the wrong way, stubborn and unrepentant
Don’t write me off, but You should’ve done it a long time ago
My Bible is in the closet, unread and all alone
My heart is beating in my chest, undiscovered and abandoned
The blind leads the blind and that’s why lies are so prone to injure the wounded
I can’t push You to stay
I don’t know where You’re at, but I need You today
My back is against the wall, thinking I’m against friends who are strong until I look down and saw the holes in my chest from all the false love
Lord Jesus, I’m still alive, but how much longer do You have me down here?
My heart has taken a beating but it’s still beating even though it’s dying
I don’t want to do anything premature, I understand You’re on the throne
I understand You’re in control and not everything is for me to know
You didn’t let me go
You hung for me a long time ago
You were thinking of me when others weren’t, and there for me when others disappeared
Lord Jesus, I’m still alive, so I hit my knees as long as you have me down here

Brooke

2 Corinthians 4.7-18

Struggling in My Own Way

I struggle in the ways that I should come to You, Lord
Sometimes it’s hard to hear You and my heart is breaking
My chest hurts and I pray to trust You more because it’s lacking
My situations change me and seem to make me harder and more independent
My days get grayer and the pain becomes greater and things don’t seem to be getting any better
My dreams are full of pride but they don’t survive in the fiery judgement of trials
I’m not made for this, the road that I’m on is dark and dangerous
They say I’ll never do better this way but I don’t believe them
I perceive myself as royalty to society, but deep in my heart I know those are the lies of the enemy
I feel kind of tipsy on Your blessings and Your mercy is abounding so I find myself among my friends and then the next day I’m feeding the pigs
Inside I’m dying
Inside I’m crying
I wish I could say these things out loud but my heart tells me to keep it quiet
Transparency is what I need
You said that I should start on my knees
I struggle with confession, so could You help me, Lord, please
When I stand back up don’t let me fall again because I’m bound to do so
It hurts and I need to get it all out
I’ve left You behind to hold the reigns in my fragile and shaking hands
I’ve deceived myself with own convoluted and perverted ways
I’m not Your equal
Now and forever, God, You reign
You knew where to find me and You know my name
You hold another opportunity with grace that far exceeds the weight of my sin
I struggle with coming to You, God, but it’s one step at a time
You’ve created a new day, it’s a new chance to live and be alive
It’s a new chance to breathe and walk slowly this time along in Your red footsteps, asking for Your forgiveness for my lofty disobedience
Uncover my eyes to see the glory of Your ways
Your justice demands that I be condemned, but You punished Yourself instead
See my heart and change it to Your likeness
Let Your voice be all I hear and fix my eyes on the holy things that I cannot see
Spirit, breathe, and let Your wind come my way
Now and forever, God, You reign

Travis

Find me in my pain, find it burying me slowly
How can You see into my eyes like they’re open doors to search through the midnight?
Why did You uncover me beneath this dirt to know where I hide?
I should be dead, but I’m still breathing somehow
The light is blinding and I can feel Your hand pulling me out
Everything I’ve wanted has fallen and is broken now
All of their pieces are left behind in the coffin where it belongs and where I once lived
I want to repent, I want to be perfect despite the temptation and the voices in my head telling me to be different, it’s all garbage
I hope You aren’t disappointed but after a while I feel like You don’t even notice

A part of me is missing and I just can’t fill it
I’ve tried and I’ve cried and I’ve tasted loneliness until my tongue was dry
I’ve been burning through the days searching for a better way
In truth I’ve been running away while everything was falling down around me
You promised to be with me as long as it takes even when I’m drowning
I need You to calm these waves but it seems like You’re far away
Make me listen
Make me different
Their mind is a loaded gun, I was the target and I’ve come undone by their shots that aimed into my heart

I’m stuck in a cage with my doubt and the toxic lies of the enemy, but I think I’m ready for You now
Everyday by myself I’m breaking down
Come and find me in my pain
You found it burying me slowly
How can You see into my heart like an open door?
I heard You knocking long ago to surrender my soul but I was afraid to reach out
Your hope is what I need now
I’ve got a war going on inside my soul
I don’t want to fight alone
I’ll give it all away, it’s all superficial

Let your Love surround me
Put Your arms around me
Your Love sees the ugly inside me and whispers that it’s staying
Your Love can’t be shaken by the decisions I’ve made
Your Love can open the coffin built by the mistakes that I’ve been laying in
You can take everything, I’ll give you the key to my mind and my heart
Hold me now
I need to feel You
Show me how to make it new
The past I can’t undo
But I don’t want to walk into the future without You

Soteriology: What Is It?

Soteriology, simply put, is the study of the doctrine of salvation.  Soteri means preserver or savior and ology describes the study of something or someone.  In this case, we are studying the doctrine of salvation, and listing a few related questions.

What are some of the questions soteriology addresses?

Once someone is saved are they always saved?
Yes.
Is baptism required for salvation? What is baptismal regeneration?
Yes – by the Holy Spirit. If one has accepted Jesus Christ into their heart and dies without the opportunity to be submerged by water, their soul is still heaven-bound (Luke 23:40-43).
Baptismal regeneration is the belief that one MUST be submerged with water in order to be obtain salvation.
What is repentance and is it necessary for salvation?
Repentance is a change of mind about a situation; it is necessary for salvation.
Is one sin worse than another?
This is a twofold question. If one has sinned, he is not any greater or any lesser than another sinner. However, each sin will be judged accordingly. God is a good judge and would not punish a liar the same as He would a serial killer.
Do conjoined twins have two souls?
Yes – one apiece.
What is salvation?
Salvation is an act of saving someone or something from harm or damage.
How were people saved before the coming of Jesus?
They weren’t. Old Testament saints waited in a place called Sheol until Jesus came to fulfill His purpose on earth.
How is a person saved or “born again a second time”?
Jesus describes this process is John 3. In order to be born again, one must receive the Holy Spirit and then they are “rebirthed” as a “spiritual” being. If they refuse, they are still of the flesh.
What about those who have never heard the Gospel – are they going to Hell?
God judges the heart while man judges the outer appearance. So while an individual may not have read a bible or recited the sinner’s prayer, they may be able to enter Heaven’s gates nonetheless.
How do man’s free will and God’s sovereignty work together in salvation?
Men are free to decide their own choices but God determines the consequences.
Do all religions offer salvation?
No – just Christianity.

Soteriology describes redemption (compensation), justification (impartiality), sanctification (set apart), propitiation (favor), and substitution atonement (reparation). All of these things work together to create the wonderful plan that God created in order to maintain a relationship with His creation despite their flaws and sinful nature.
Salvation is not man drawing towards God, rather God drawing towards man (John 6:44).

Why did God go through the trouble of creating and carrying out the plan of salvation in order that His enemies to live forever?

God’s Words for You puts it this way as they read from the book of Ephesians:
The initiating cause of our salvation is the will and purpose of God (Eph 1:5, 9, 11)
The motivating cause of our salvation is the love of God (1:4)
The necessitating cause of our salvation is our spiritual deadness and sin (2:1-5)
The enabling/facilitating cause of our salvation is the grace of God (1:6-8; 2:5-9)
The meritorious cause of our salvation is the blood of Christ (1:7)
The legal cause of our salvation is the imputed righteousness (1:4)
The effective cause of our salvation is the power of God (1:18-23)
The subjective cause of our salvation is hearing and understanding the message of Christ (1:9, 13)
The instrumental cause of our salvation is faith (1:1, 13; 2:8)
The locational cause of our salvation is union/identification with Jesus Christ (1:3, 4, 7, 11; 2:5-6)
The recitative cause of our salvation is the praise and glory of God (1:6, 12, 14; 2:10)

 

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How To Ruin Your Relationship With God

As solid of a relationship as you may have with God, you must agree that there are times of turmoil in this totally one-sided love you have. I say one sided because the deeper I go into the presence of God the more I grow to understand that my love for Him is totally overshadowed by His love for me. It’s completely different from any relationship that I’ve ever been in, and along with it being new, life with Jesus brings new complications and even more new joys!

I have since been acquiring a list of standard practices that I have gone through or seen executed perfectly. As my divine Creator washes over me with love, showers me with His detailed affection and offers me intrinsic value; I have become increasingly aware of my ability to reciprocate with total arrogance and selfishness.

It might seem like nothing to other people, but the smallest things mean so much when we zoom out. Things like my inability to wake up early and pray, or my two years of complete marijuana obsession. They seem insignificant to some but let’s be real; putting these things at a greater priority than the Creator of all things, author of time and giver of life is a big deal to me.

So it’s because of my daily heathenly practices that I’ve acquired a list of ways to ruin this amazing thing I got going with the Big Guy. It’s a sort of  “how to” of nightmarish proportions. Follow these steps exactly, and you will be broken, lonely and farther from God than you were when you were an agnostic, Beatles fan who loved MGMT and only smoked bowls cuz blunts ruin the flavor, bro. (I’m looking at you, Chaz) So here comes the guide to losing the relationship–a guide I know you won’t follow. But when you run across one of these and you can juke it like Steph Curry before Lebron you will thank me.

Prioritize God Last In Your Life

Look, some things in life can’t be given up. Too much change is required. You need to stop trying to squeeze God into every little thing you do and relax. If God is really who he says he is, then you can set your schedule and He will come to you! Besides, bottomless mimosas on Sunday mornings for 20$ is unbeatable. What kind of God would make you give that up?

Pray Only For Things You Want

God is like a genie. When you pray for something you always 100% of the time get it. Because God wants you to always have what you want. This way if you mess it up, you can only blame yourself! Isn’t He so good?!

God is Good!

Chaz: In All of the Times!!

–It’s “All the time” Chaz, but anyway.
Don’t worry about praying for things that aren’t your business, focus only on things that include you, and as you pray about them make sure you tell God that you want Him to have His way about all of these things. While you’re at it, never offer to pray for someone and always ask for prayer. Make sure that the two are tied together. You just never want to actually act on the prayers that are said. That would be ostentatious.

Develop Relationships That Only Benefit You.

While you are in ministry, make sure you forget about the little people, if you are in business make sure you work too much and forget about church, if you are a church goer make sure you only hang out with the “cool” people in church. No one else really hears from God. Who do you think told them to wear those long-cut tees? Make sure you only become friends with people who have something to offer you.

If anyone asks you for anything in return, they aren’t really your friends and you shouldn’t build deep friendships with them. They are just shallow and trying to use you.

I’m telling you this is the way to go! If there is a short cut to destroying your relationship with God here it is!

Never Sacrifice.

You’re the only one that matters. If someone doesn’t fit into your schedule, then why should you sacrifice your time to make time for them? Sure, keeping your word is good and all but keeping your purpose intact…at all costs…now there is something God respects. You need to look out for yourself. It’s not like you have people who are going to do that for you. Since you only hang out with the cool people, odds are you won’t have many friends. You are one step closer to isolation. Which is one spot on way to kill your relationship with God.

Great! So you’re isolated, you only hang out with certain people, your prayer life is self-focused and you fit God in “wherever you can”.  Looks like we only have a couple more things to go before you’ve effectively ruined your relationship with God.

Try to Be Relevant to People Instead of Obedient to God.

You’ve gotta have the new Hillsong Y&F album. And you besta make sure you’re at Fetty Wap & Andy Mineo show but since it’s on a Saturday night, you should probably sleep in and just stream some Steven Furtick from bed Sunday morning. Maybe do a Coffee & Bible IG post, and snap yourself going for a run (mind, body and soul). Not gonna lie! It felt like an amazing Sunday so you could do that for a few weeks until you start receiving some sweet texts and calls from your leaders and pastors.

“We miss you, dawg.”
read

“You coming to home group? Got that lasagna tonight!”
read

“Hey, hope you’re okay. We miss you.”
read

“Applebees tonight. You in?!”
read

Don’t listen to or seek leadership in your life. 

For grade A, fast track to destruction of your relationship with God, skip right to here. All of the things discussed up to this point could arguably be misinterpreted. We could say you just didn’t have any control over them and you were simply going through a hard time. Here is where you differentiate yourself from all the others. Where you stand out and say “I REFUSE TO LISTEN TO GODLY ADVICE FROM GODLY PEOPLE!”

When you take that stand, you are saying consciously, with your heart that you want to inflict damage on your relationship with God. I say this so vividly because it is one of the only steps here that require true rebellion against authority on earth. Every other step have been micro-rebellions against God.  But in this step, we make it public.

REVIEW

If I can provide road signs for future mishaps in your walk that is what I want to do. In all seriousness there are a couple of main ways to restore your relationship with God if it’s hurting and that is Spiritual Accountability and Obedience to God’s word. Without those two we will never feel like we are fulfilling our lives as Christians. Any way we size it up, our lives and our being are made to work in the function of church as Christ sees it (not American Church). A spiritual family, built on the word of God. Building each other up through prayer. Without these functions we are lone rangers doomed to solitary Christianity, a diluted Jesus. Because He uses His sons and daughters who are willing and works through them. This walk is only feasible with Christ and community. All this in love,
-Angel.

The Test of Knowing Him

Now by this we know that we know Him, if we keep His commandments.  He who says, “I know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him.  He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked.

Culture and God

Angel Quiroz is a vlogger, blogger and designer.  Angel has created the website Culture and God for the purpose to inform culture of societal achievements and downfalls, faith, love and life from a fresh perspective and interesting facts about shopping, fitness and music.  While being transparent with his own life challenges, part of Angel’s goal is to encourage you to take heart as God builds character and strength so as to let His glory and your purpose shine like a lamp set upon a hill.  If you wish to contact him, he has communication set up through his website through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Google Plus.

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Short

Unless there is air, there is no fire
Unless there is life, there is no living water
Until I’m dead, I’m not born again
Praying a prayer does not mean I’m religious
Going to church does not make me a Christian
Rebellion is called sin and there are snakes in the wilderness
My ghost is left in the garden because I’m not perfect, and I’m not as spiritual as you think I am
Are you expecting too much of me, or am I not being all I could be?
God chases those He loves even while they’re in darkness
Before we’re brought to life, we’re walking carcasses
But now I can impact a life because of a life changing Message
At 17, I experienced death and eternity
Pinned to the ground forced to cry out to unlock the restraints of immorality
Sin does not laugh or enjoy games
I don’t mean to bring up the past but at that point I was born again
It’s not who I was, it’s who I am
The truth is for the body and faith is for the mountains
There’s nothing new about it but it’s still full of power
He promised millions of miles by my side as Jehovah Jireh
He promised to be the star directing my path as the Prince of Peace just as He did for the three kings
To be the author and finisher of my faith and as the lamp to light my way
Unless there is love there is no change
Some say I lost my life but I never settle for average
Some are scared they’re going to die so they’re living it to the highest
But if Jesus wasn’t resurrected, you’re already wasting your life
You need eternal salvation because this isn’t all there is
Until you’re dead, you aren’t born again
At 21, I heard a call and a command to abandon my selfish desires and wills in the grave
Unless there is life there is no living water
Take a sip of Life before returning to the well of man
There is grace
And there is fire in His eyes
The Son separated from glory
To crown you eternal life

Butterflies

When did I lose myself?
When did I lose myself in you?
Hear me screaming and feel them reverberating
The echos are your compass to find me
You have all of my heart, the one you left behind
You cannot erase history merely amongst the wings of time
I want to know that you’re finally gone, but your picture is still on the wall of my heart
Ashes of our dreams together are scattered around, haunting me forever from now on
I saved my last breath for you and you’re still holding it in your arms
You have all of me captured in your illuminated darkness
I wish you would just leave, so why are you still standing here?
I wish you would disappear, so why does your presence still linger near?
The abrasions inflicted by your sorcery do not heal
I gave you all of me, but you took it all from me
I made the mistake, so blame it all on me
But trust when I say I will never again live for poisonous beauty
Why am I so hypnotized by what does not last very long?
Before I knew it, what we had suddenly was gone
Reaching out for hope between the tears when it was over
When I look into your eyes searching for oceans, all I see are dirty little puddles
I don’t have a right to know everything, but Jesus does
I don’t do it all right, but I know Jesus does
Our last goodbye disappeared as a butterfly would
I’m not holy, but I tell you what He told me
In the back of my mind I’m wondering if you’ll always be the tourniquet to my mentality
Is this the new reality, the fork in the road right here?
Where I choose to let the Man who parted the seas to let me out of the tower guarded by your noisy promises?
I’m dying with a broken heart until I hear His footsteps
They approached the door
When He opened it, He told me to come forth
I’m desperate for hope
He said He lost Himself, He lost Himself in me
He heard my screams and felt them in His heartbeat
I don’t know what to do; still kind of out of it
I don’t know how to forgive
He said it didn’t matter, just to take His hand
The first hello came like a butterfly would
I don’t know how You’re going to come through
Why You’re even bothering to fix this hardened fool
Maybe You can do everything you say you could
Maybe You’re accustomed to opening these tombs